WiW: My greatest idol

The Week in Words

It hit me between the eyes as I drove down Highway 30 on my way home from Grand Island.

I was listening to ChristianAudio’s recording of Jerry Bridges’ The Pursuit of Holiness (Available for free this month!).

“Our first problem [with walking in holiness] is that our attitude toward sin is more self-centered than God-centered. We are more concerned about our own ‘victory’ over sin than we are about the fact that our sins grieve the heart of God. We cannot tolerate failure in our struggle with sin chiefly because we are success-oriented, not because we know it is offensive to God.”

~Jerry Bridges, The Pursuit of Holiness

Ouch!

The moment I heard it, I knew its truth.

Up until that moment, I had been fighting a self-centered battle with sin and hadn’t even realized it!

My fight for holiness wasn’t about glorifying God or abhorring the things that break His heart. It was about making myself look good, proving that I could do it, gaining victory over sin.

But Bridges’ reminds us:

God wants us to walk in obedience — not victory. Obedience is oriented toward God, victory is oriented toward self. This may seem to be merely splitting hairs over semantics, but there is a subtle, self-centered attitude at the root of many of our difficulties with sin. Until we face this attitude and deal with it we will not consistently walk in holiness.”

Say I had managed to gain victory over all those external sins I so want to conquer.

What then?

I could boast in my flesh–like the rich young ruler who tells Jesus that he has kept the commandments from his youth–but my boasting would quickly be brought to naught as Jesus reveals my secret idol.

Not possessions.

Me.

I am my own greatest idol.

Every morning I wake up and bow at the altar of self. Every evening I return to offer self homage.

I offer a sacrifice on the altar. I bring the grain offerings. I keep the feasts.

My ablutions are not effective, my oblations not accepted.

I have offered my sacrifice to the wrong god.

Self instead of Christ.

Lord, have mercy upon my idolatrous soul–and teach me to treasure You above me.

Barbara H’s meme “The Week in Words” is where bloggers collect quotes they’ve read throughout the week. Crying foul over my audiobook quoting? After a couple days of contemplating what I’d heard, I remembered that I’d picked up The Pursuit of Holiness at a used store a couple of months back. I started reading at the beginning–and was hit anew with the realization of my idolatrous fight with sin.


Yes and No

Completing the meme in a rather different fashion.

YES…
…there is someone (many ones) who mean(s) a lot to me.
…I have laughed so hard I cried
…I remember who I liked in 7th grade (and I’ll bet a lot of other people do too)
…I am looking forward to the next couple months
…I have scars
…Someone (some folk) call me “Babe” sometimes
…I have liked someone older than me
…I can make change for a dollar just now
…People often think I’m younger (or older) than I actually am
…I can braid hair

NO…
…I have never stayed up all night on the phone
…I would not move somewhere else (just now) if given the opportunity
…I do not like the Jonas Brothers (but I don’t particularly dislike them either
…There are not boys I can tell anything to
…I am not afraid to grow up
…I would never get a tattoo (prolly)
…I do not dye my hair (although I have once)
…I have never played Spin The Bottle
…I do not like voicemails
…I am not good at hiding my feelings
…I have never gotten alcohol poisoning
…I have never been suspended

With ten “yes”es and twelve “no”s, I am official tipping the scale toward negativity. Sorry to be a downer, folks. :-)


Flashback: Red Beans and Rice

Home and School Discipline were pretty much one and the same for the Menter kids.

We were, after all, homeschooled.

But there were a few items distinctive to the school environment.

Items like Red Beans and Rice.

Flashback Friday buttonToday Linda asks… How strict were teachers when you were in school? What were common methods of discipline? No recess? Writing sentences? Being sent to the principal’s office? Were “pops” or “swats” allowed? …

We were mostly self-directed students after the first or second grade. We had the assignment sheets Mom gave us at the beginning of the school year and we were responsible for working our way through them day by day and asking questions if we needed help.

We generally started the year with great intentions of “getting ahead”, but we generally spent most of our time “getting ahead” in certain subjects that we preferred. Meanwhile, we “got behind” in all the rest.

And eventually, the novelty of “getting ahead” wore off and we’d “get behind” in everything.

Riding our bicycles or reading a book or playing with legos was immensely more fun than doing math problems or “reading” (the subject). And so we just ignored our work altogether.

Dad would end up coming home from work only to have to sit on us to do our work in the evening.

I’m sure Mom and Dad tried all sorts of things to get us to stay on schedule–but I only remember the one.

Red Beans and Rice.

My dad finally figured out a way to get us to do our schoolwork before supper. He issued an ultimatum. If our work wasn’t done by suppertime, no matter what the rest of the family was eating, we were having red beans and rice.

And I’m not talking the spicy Southern dish.

I’m talking kidney beans from a can or cooked on the stove. White rice. A bit of salt.

Dad made up big batches and froze it in individual freezer bags.

If we kids weren’t done with school when he got home from work, he’d pull out the appropriate number of servings and reheat them for the errant children.

We’d sit in stony silence, pushing red beans and rice around our plates while the rest of the family ate Swedish meatballs and mashed potatoes…or lasagna and breadsticks…or meatloaf and baked potatoes.

The next day? We’d get our school work done before Dad got home.

For the record, allow me to remind you that my parents were NOT (and are not) abusive. We still got plenty of food–both through our other meals and from the red beans and rice themselves. Furthermore, no one chose to repeat the experience for too many days in a row. I doubt any of us had more than two or three meals of red beans and rice during even our most “behind” weeks.

Red beans and rice were a powerful disciplinary tool, let me tell you!

Read more at Mocha with Linda’s Flashback Friday Meme


Thankful Thursday: The C(K)athys

When I first started traveling to Columbus, I was pleased that I would find myself in Columbus over Wednesday nights–the night the C/Kathy’s hosted their young professional’s Bible study. I eagerly rushed from work to Kathy’s, where the whole set of us transplants fellowshipped and were challenged and grew.

After a long Christmas break from Bible study, I was glad to get back into the swing of things last night…and it turned out, Bible study was even better than I’d hoped for.

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Today I’m thankful…

…for Cathy’s rave reviews of The Pioneer Woman’s blackberry cobbler (which I’d prepared for the Bible study crowd)

…for Kathy’s thoughtfulness in having a selection of teas available for us to enjoy (including several herbal varieties)

…for both K(C)athy’s encouragement that I share my shocking secrets with the newest member of our crew

…for Kathy’s reminder that “You will get done exactly what God wills you to get done.”

…for Cathy’s exhortation: “Have you considered taking a technology break?” And her follow up: “Don’t do it because I suggested it. Ask God what He would have you do.”

…for how God has used both of these women to bless me, to challenge me, and to conform me into the image of His Son.


A Country Schoolhouse

My grandparents attended a one room schoolhouse in northeastern Nebraska. My mother attended the same country school for her elementary schooling. My brother’s mother-in-law met her husband while she was teaching in a one room country schoolhouse in western Nebraska. A dear friend of the family who I’ve known for all my life sat on the school board for a country schoolhouse just outside of Lincoln–the school he’d attended as a child, the school he’d sent his own children too, the school that now served some of the children in my church congregation.

I attended one of their school programs held in one of the three rooms within the little schoolhouse. Desks, tables, shelves, and learning materials were pushed aside to make room for guests and for a makeshift stage. It was an ordinary sort of program, with each of the thirty or so students performing multiple parts.

I was reminded of this school, of these schools, as I read Lynne Barasch’s A Country Schoolhouse.

A Country Schoolhouse bookA little girl asks her Grandpa, the professor, to tell her the story of how he became so smart. The grandpa narrates the rest of the story, telling of the three room country school house he attended. He tells how their school was a working class school–how all the kids had to help their parents with the family work after they got done with school. He tells how they had spelling bees and geography bees and history bees. He tells of the games that they played in an open field. He tells of how they used an outhouse and had to be taught how to flush a toilet when the school got indoor plumbing.

And he talks about how they learned. How they memorized and recited all sorts of facts. How they learned new information from what the other grades ahead of you in the room were learning–or reviewed what you’d already learned while the younger grades were learning it for the first time.

Then he describes how his family moved to the city and he started going to a city school with only one grade in each room. The school was huge and overwhelming–“But the biggest surprise of all was what those kids didn’t know.”

The grandpa in the story was the smartest kid in the new city school. As we learned at the beginning of the story, he went on to be professor–a professor who attributed his smarts to the learning he received in a country school.

Less than a year after I’d attended the Christmas program at the country school outside of Lincoln, the state board of education removed the school boards of all the “Class I” schools in Nebraska–all the small public country schools–forcing the schools to close.

They did it because they figured it wasn’t fair. It wasn’t fair that Nebraska’s primarily-white rural students should receive an education so superior to the rest of the state’s students. It wasn’t fair that some schools could be run by boards from their immediate community–by average Joes who care about kids–when the rest of the state had to have schools run by board members most of the students and parents had never met. It wasn’t fair that some of Nebraska–the part with the country schools–was spending less money to give their children an elementary education.

It clearly had to be stopped.

Despite petitions to the contrary and the best efforts of small school advocates, the forced closure of Class I schools proceeded.

Today the empty country schoolhouses dot Nebraska’s landscape, boarded up reminders of a closed chapter in Nebraska history.

Books like Barasch’s A Country Schoolhouse remind Nebraska’s readers of just what they’ve lost.

Reading My LibraryFor more comments on children’s books, see the rest of my Reading My Library posts or check out Carrie’s blog Reading My Library, which chronicles her and her children’s trip through the children’s section of their local library.



Condemnation or Christ Jesus

I sit in condemnation.

Undisciplined, lazy, foolish. I heap insults upon myself.

I remind myself that there is no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, but my reminders fail at their attempted meaning.

My mind keeps offering buts.

But I’m not walking as I ought.

But I’m behind in my Bible reading, behind in my Scripture memory.

But I’m late for Sunday school.

But I stayed up too late working crossword puzzles.

But, but, but…. I stand condemned in my own eyes.

Then I sit in worship and the words wash over me. “You’re altogether lovely, altogether worthy, altogether wonderful to me.”

And I get it.

The problem with this condemnation is pride. It’s me turning my eyes onto myself, onto what I’ve done or not done.

What I’ve done or not done is not the point. The point is what Christ has done, who He is.

So turn, Rebekah, turn your eyes from self to Christ. Turn your thoughts from self-condemnation to Christ-glorification.

Turn your heart. Turn your heart to Him.


WFMW: Salvaging burnt baked goods

You’re preparing for guests (like a houseful of family and friends for New Year’s Eve, say) and have decided to make some sort of fantastic baked goods.

Bread, buns, rolls…maybe biscuits.

Ah, yes, biscuits.

You’ll make tons of tiny biscuits and roll them in that Garlic-Parmesan mixture for a nice New Year’s Eve treat.

But then…

You burn the biscuits.

Burnt biscuits

Badly.

You’ll have to start all over now–having just wasted a half hour making and cutting out and baking biscuits. Right?

Nope.

There is a way to salvage burnt baked goods.

Just grab your cheese grater and grate that burnt stuff right off the bottom.

Burnt biscuit on cheese grater

Voila! Almost like it never happened.

Unburnt biscuits

You roll the mini-biscuits in garlic-parmesan stuff and serve as planned–and none of your guests are the wiser (until they read your blog, that is!)

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SnOw weenie

It’s official: I am SO a SnOw weenie.

And I’m never going to do THAT again.

THAT being calling off a trip to my facilities in Grand Island the day before based on a weather report.

The snow stopped yesterday, leaving us with 8ish inches of snow.

The roads were being plowed, all was good–but everybody was buzzing about how the winds were supposed to pick up.

So I sent an e-mail to my facilities out of town and told them I’d be postponing my trip out to see them.

I woke up this morning to clear skies and still clear roads. The only possible road hazards were a wee bit of snow and ice on 30 by Central City.

That’s it, I decided. From now on, I wait until the morning of to decide whether to risk the roads or not.

No use messing up my schedule for a danger that doesn’t exist.

sNOw weenie NO more!


Incomprehensible Awe

When I look at the works of men, I am overwhelmed with awe.

Skyscrapers.

Supercomputers.

747s.

Beautiful artwork. Soul-stirring music. A well written book

It is too much for my mind to conceive.

Yet somehow, all these things were conceived of by the minds of men.

If I cannot comprehend the immensity of these works of the mind of men, how can I begin to comprehend, to conceive the mind of God?

For He not only comprehends the minds that conceived these works which I find so awe-inspiring and incomprehensible–He conceived the very minds that were then capable of conceiving such incomprehensible (to me) works.

Thus does my awe at man’s creations put me even more in awe of man’s Creator.

“When I consider Your heavens, the work of Your fingers,
The moon and the stars, which You have ordained,
What is man that You are mindful of him,
And the son of man that You visit him?
For You have made him a little lower than the angels,
And You have crowned him with glory and honor.”
~Psalm 8:3-5


Snapshot: Baking Baklava

If you’ve ever read my lists of life goals, you know that I have a lot I’d like to do. (And I’ve truncated the list for the web.)

It just so happens that one of those items was “Make baklava from scratch”.

And it just so happens that once upon a time Seth was reading my list of goals and saw that one. He sent me a quick e-mail to say that he had a great recipe and if I was interested he could send it to me.

I said sure.

Well, all sorts of things get in the way of such intentions and for whatever reason, Seth didn’t send me the recipe–and I didn’t really think about it.

Then it was the day before my New Year’s Eve party and I was coming up blank on ideas of what to make as a sweet snack.

And, lo and behold, I found an e-mail from Seth in my inbox, with recipe attached!

Baklava

Part of the process

Baklava

The “leftovers”

He was right–his recipe is fantastic. You should probably all go over to Collateral Bloggage and hound him for a copy.

Thanks, Seth, for helping me meet a goal–and providing a fantastic sweet for our New Year’s party!