Confessions of a Seminar-Stressed Nutrition Student

With less than two days ’til seminar, I’ve been totally stressed out today–especially when my internship case study took all morning and my health program planning took all afternoon. I had no choice but to spend all evening on seminar. So, when I got out of class a bit before 8 this evening, I went shopping.

And what, you may ask, does a dietetics intern and nutrition grad student purchase to tide her over during what is sure to be a late night writing?

basket full of junk food

Try donuts, potato chips, Veggie Tales fruit snacks, sardines in mustard sauce, Swiss rolls, Hot Tamales, Boston baked beans, a hot spiced cider packet, dried apple rings, sour gummy worms, cherry sours, ramen, and grapefruit juice.

To my credit, I didn’t eat it all–apparently my binge eating powers have decreased in the last couple of years. All I had this evening was the sardines, a third of the bag of chips, a donut, 3 packets of fruit snacks, a few pieces each of each of the candies, and half the jug of juice.

It’s a sore blow to my olden days eat everything in sight motto–but if I maintain this level of “moderation” (if you can call it that), I may have some snacks to finish my seminar with tomorrow. And if I’m really lucky, I may have some for finishing up my project proposal on Thursday night. It’s too much to hope that I’ll have anything left for Tuesday night, when all my papers are done and my roommates are gone and I’ll be vegging out.

And then I won’t eat another bite of junk food for another couple of months until the next big stress event occurs. (Or Christmas, whichever comes first.)

Such is the life of THIS dietetic intern!


A Recipe for Stress

    Nov. 4

  • The United States of America elects Barak Obama president
    Wed, Nov. 5

  • Get to bed REALLY late
  • Wake up pretty EARLY
  • Go to class
  • Go to work
  • Stay up way too late AGAIN
    Thu, Nov. 6

  • Collect data for research class
  • Moderate at seminar
  • Seminar abstract due
  • Research methods homework due
  • Attend sister’s white coat ceremony
    Fri, Nov. 7

  • Food Chemistry test
  • Work 7 hours
  • Attend Barn dance
    Sat, Nov. 8

  • Work 10 hours
    Tue, Nov. 11

  • Case study due
  • Medical Terminology competition
  • Lab values competition
    Thu, Nov. 13

  • Present seminar
  • Research methods assignment due
    Fri, Nov. 14

  • Non-thesis option project proposal due

Recipe for Peace:

“Be anxious for nothing, but in everything, through prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:6-7


World Without My Glasses

I don’t really need my glasses around the house. Not when I’m at the computer or reading or puttering. I only need them for my distance vision. So I didn’t have them on when I left for class at 4. By the time I realized I had forgotten them, it was too late to turn back. Welcome to a whole new world.

It was odd, asking a question of a blob on a television screen. It’s always odd doing the teleconferencing thing–but not being able to see makes it even more unusual. Navigating rush hour traffic on two of North Lincoln’s busiest streets was also interesting. I could feel the tiny muscles in my eyes straining to focus.

The library was an adventure. I couldn’t scan the stacks like I usually do–or my head would start spinning with blurry blocks of text. Instead, I had to kneel so that my head was level with whatever shelf I was looking at–so that my eyes could focus on the spines of the books directly in front of me.

I dropped by my parent’s house to ask my brother John about his day at the College of Business Administration’s “Big Red Welcome.” I asked him, teasing, if they had convinced him to join the Business College. He replied, quite seriously, that he thinks they have. I’m excited for him–I think he’ll do great in business. He’s smart, he’s a people person, he’s a go-getter. It’s just that he’s really growing up. Tomorrow he’ll vote in his first ever election–helping to make a decision that’ll shape the destiny of our nation.

I sat down for some pumpkin pie (made by my brother Daniel and his girlfriend Debbie) and my sister Grace began a lament about her civics class. The teacher has switched her teaching style and Grace prefers the old one–in fact, she’s pretty much sure that the old way is the only way she (Grace) can learn. I listened and thought, “External locus of control.” Then I thought, “You’re a nerd.” Then I realized that Gracie is growing up. She’s in high school now–the place where grades start counting. She’s learning our governmental system. She’s learning how to learn on her own (somewhat unwillingly, but oh well.)

The phone rang and we ignored it. The phone wasn’t in its holster anyway. But Joshua bounded up the stairs with the phone to announce a call for Timothy. It was the army recruiter. Tim jumped up and paced towards the school room (soon the piano room)–and then changed his mind and went the opposite direction, into his bedroom. He’s pretty serious about this thing. He’s researched his options. He’s looked into schools. He’s gone over costs and benefits. He’s considered the risks of war. He’s looked into genetic engineering in the military. He’s on the cusp of making his decision. If he decides to join the Army Reserves, he’ll be heading to boot camp next summer.

It seems like just yesterday, they were this:
Tim and Grace as children
and now–he’s talking of joining the military.

I take off my glasses for just a day and the world swirls by, leaving me with a foreign landscape. What happened to yesterday? Where’d it go?

I don’t know–and I can’t waste time trying to figure it out–I’d only end up losing today.


The Ethics of Calling in

There is definitely an ethic involved in calling in sick, or going in sick, or any of the above. Unfortunately, like most ethical dilemnas, it’s not an easy situation to ascertain.

Sure, if you’re vomiting, it’s easy to determine that you shouldn’t go in to work. If you’ve been diagnosed with an infectious disease, you shouldn’t go in to work.

But what about the more obscure cases? What about when you have a headache that isn’t responding to painkillers but is making you painfully slow? The headache isn’t catching. You’re still capable of doing the job. It’s just that every step hurts, every noise is amplified, and the normal levels of light in the kitchen have you squinting.

What about when you’re dizzy and reeling–probably from postnasal drip caused by allergies? You’re not contagious–unless the post-nasal drip is infected and finds some way of making it to others through poor personal hygiene. But you’re certainly not performing your job as you should.

What about when you have an incredibly sore throat, can barely talk, and are running what TO YOU is a remarkably high temperature? In foodservice, sore throat with fever means exclusion from working with food. But what happens if your normal body temperature ranges from 95-96 and suddenly it’s 98? If my normal body temperature were NORMAL (98.6) and it suddenly jumped to above 100, I’d have a fever. But despite my severe jump, I’m still below “normal”.

It’s not ethical to call in sick when you feel fine. It’s not ethical to call in sick because you’re “sick of working”. It’s not ethical to call in sick because you have too many accrued sick hours. But what about when you truly don’t feel well–but just aren’t sure whether you’re sick enough to truly be considered SICK?


Boring

I told my sister, in a comment on her blog, that only boring people are bored. What I failed to take into account is that one need not be bored to be without anything interesting to blog about.

I, for one, had an incredibly full and interesting day. I wasn’t bored for a minute. But I kind of doubt you’re interested in what I did today.

Chances are you aren’t interested in the details of my morning routine. Chances are, you don’t care that I remade my bed and folded and put away all my clothes as soon as they came out of the dryer.

You probably don’t care that I read Job 23 and Jeremiah 29 today–the first contained a passage I identified strongly with (v.8-9), the second contained a verse that gave me great hope (v. 13). You probably don’t care that I found my piano books and put in some practice time this morning.

Most likely you’re bored by medical terminology–and couldn’t care less that anoxemia is a deficiency of oxygen in the blood. You don’t probably have any opinion about the studies that had me tearing my hair out today.

I can’t imagine that you’ll be excited to hear that I balanced my checkbook today, updated my family’s phone numbers in my new cell phone, and mailed in my cell phone refund.

My life, and my day, was interesting to me–but you most likely see it quite differently.

Well, I’m grateful for a packed full, productive, enjoyable day–even if it left me with a rather boring blog.


Rebekah Menter and the Adventure of the Purloined(?) Purse

The clock said 10:26–I had four minutes to go when my boss beckoned me. I had a phone call, she said, from the University Police.

I was a bit shocked, until she said, “Something about a missing wallet?

Seems the purse I thought I’d left on top of Jack and therefore lost somewhere on my little dead end street actually made its way to campus, where a kindhearted kid picked it up and took it to the campus police.

I dropped by the station to pick it up–the policewoman wanted me to inspect it, make sure nothing was missing. “Well, my cell phone is destroyed” I said. “Destroyed?” She sounded shocked. I knew it sounded extreme, but I didn’t know how else to describe it. I showed her the battery that had come unplugged and the flip top that was completely separated from the keypad–revealing thin copper sheets of circuitry. “Oh yes. Do you want to file a report?–Cause we have the name of the guy who dropped it off.” I assured her that I had no interest in filing a report. “I’ll just buy a new phone. After all, the purse was on the ground somewhere–it could have been in the street or in a parking lot and gotten run over.” She conceded that was a possibility. Nothing else was missing or disturbed. I signed the papers and left for class.

And after class, I dropped by the cell phone store, where I picked up a new phone, free after mail-in-rebate. We renewed our contract about a month ago, but I saw no need to get a new phone when the one I had worked just fine. My frugality/eco-friendliness paid off, since I ended up with a brand new free phone right after mine had been destroyed.

Within five hours of “losing” my phone, I had a new one that worked. Pretty amazing if you think about it. Someone must be on my side ;-)

However, that leaves me address-book-less for the moment. So if you want me to put you back on my new contact list, give me a call or text me at my same old number (and don’t forget to tell me who you are.) If you don’t call me, I’ll just wait until I have to call you, then I’ll look it up the old-fashioned way–by calling my mom!


Fall

Autumn is, at long last, dropping into fall. Gone is the Indian Summer with its bread-baking noondays and cool evenings. Now, it is starting to get truly cold.

I got out of my bath to discover that, outside of the steamy warmth of the bathroom, I was cold. Only days ago, I had my overhead fan on. Today, I’m considering whether to turn on my electric blanket.

I did laundry today–and for the first time in a long time, I put more shirts in my sweater drawer than in my t-shirt drawer.

I saw a girl in a coat today, and it made me think–“I need to put a new lining in my fall coat.” I thought about it last spring, as I packed it away. I even added it to my running to-do list. But I haven’t paid much attention to it since. It certainly wasn’t priority. But it might be now.

I’m contemplating how this fall will be the same, and different, from previous ones. Like many other falls, my thoughts turn to Christmas with expectation. But thanks to the marvels of modern medicine, I may actually be able to enjoy the months leading up to Christmas (instead being destined to hibernation and sluggishness).
I’ve never dressed up for Halloween before–but this year, we have a costume contest at work (and I’m going to WIN!) I’ve generally gone on a hiatus from leg shaving during the fall and winter months–but this year I’ve got to be a professional, which means I probably shouldn’t bristle.

Fall–it’s a good season, I think. Let it come. Whatever it throws at me, old or new, I’m ready for it.


Agenda-less

Thanks to a whip-cracking week last week (which unfortunately did not include blogging–sorry, everyone), I currently have no pressing deadlines. Which meant that instead of making a to-do list for today, I went agenda-less. I woke up this morning with only two fixed engagements–work from 8 to noon and Joanna around 7. Everything else was negotiable.

So what did I do today?

If you guessed nothing, you don’t know me quite well enough.

Today, I did things and then wrote them in my planner and crossed them off.

I did my morning routine–and wrote “morning routine” in my planner and crossed it off. I went to work–and wrote “work” in my planner and crossed it off. I made new shelves for my shoes in my closet while waiting for my milk to heat up for yogurt–and wrote “closet-shoes” and “yogurt” in my planner and crossed them off. I decanted and strained some liqueur I started making a while back–and wrote “liquer” (yes, I spelled it wrong) in my planner and crossed it off. I worked some cross-stitch (quite a bit actually) on my sampler–and wrote “cross-stitch” in my planner and crossed it off. I watched Tom Sawyer–and wrote “Tom Sawyer” in my planner and crossed it off. I did dishes…

I think you get the picture.

I love being productive. I love putzing around the house. I love flitting from one thing to the next without a care in the world. These are the joys of being caught up.

So often, I live my life according to a tightly arranged agenda. I must get x, y, and z done by such and such a time. I must be here by then or else I’ll be late to there. I ran my entire undergraduate career–just trying to stay one step ahead. I started my graduate career trying to catch up (Mexico to grad school in 12 hours, remember?) So now it feels nice to finally be ahead.

Now if I can remember to live in what Stephen Covey calls “Quadrant II.” Quadrant II is all about doing the things that are Important but not Urgent. It’s making sure you never get to the place where you’re scrambling to meet deadlines. It’s an awesome place to be, theoretically. I don’t know for reality because I’ve never been there–I’ve always been playing catch-up, or racing the deadlines (Covey’s Quadrant I).

So then–
Today I’m agenda-less
Tomorrow I’m Quadrant II


My Friend

“Thank you, my friend” she said when I dropped her off at her door.

I thought I’d heard her say the same thing on Wednesday, but then convinced myself that I was dreaming.

Today, there was no doubt in my mind.

I don’t envy Nyayan’s position. She’s a Sudanese refugee working in the dishroom, which is populated primarily by students and mentally challenged individuals. She has a hard time speaking English, the students aren’t interested in talking to her, the special-needs workers don’t really talk that much–and often have communication issues of their own. So Nyayan works 40 hours a week in virtual isolation.

Then we get into the car and chat briefly in the five minutes that it takes to get to her house. I ask about her baby (2 months old right now). She asks me about my car’s mirror and when I’m working next. I ask her if she has plans for her weekend off.

It doesn’t feel like much. I give her a ride. I talk with her. I made her baby a quilt. It’s not much at all.

I feel honored that she considers me a friend.


I’m ready for winter

In Laura Ingalls Wilder’s The Long Winter, Pa notices that the muskrats are building very thick walls for their homes. He worries that the coming winter is going to be hard.

Creatures of all sorts do different things in preparation for the winter. Some grow fat in preparation for a long hibernation period. Some store up food in preparation for a long dearth of fresh food. I am one of the latter. When the weather starts getting cool, I start thinking of storing up food. Of course, once the days get too much shorter, I’m going to enter hibernation as well–when my average sleep needed goes from a little less than eight hours to something well over ten. But I digress.

My local grocery store had a sale this weekend–sections of meat for reduced prices. So when I got off work at eight this evening, I went grocery shopping. I got a 14 lb beef bottom and a 10 lb tube of hamburger–oh, and several pounds of beans, a 15 lb bag of potatoes, a five lb bag of carrots…you get the picture.

This meat (and probably the potatoes too) should get our little household through Christmas at least (my sister thinks ’til next spring, but I’m not so sure). As of right now, my mother’s deep freeze (which she is so gracious to let us make use of, our little freezer being STUFFED full) now contains 2 roasts, 2 packs of steaks, about 10 packs of stew/stir fry/bbq beef meat, 8 bags of ground beef, and 2 bags full of meatballs.

Winter can come, my house is ready. We have beef enough to outlast it.